My baby girl is what we call an 80/20 person. If she's 80% sure a decision is the right one, she's comfortable with the 20% risk. She's quick and decisive, sometimes impulsive, often tangential, tenacious, and thoughtful.
Inspired by an idea, she'll immediately fling herself into a new activity, and she rarely needs time to regroup or assess anything. Beep rarely hesitates and is nearly always convinced she's right. About everything.
Her way of being is not mine. I'm a 99/1 person. I come to decisions more deliberately, need time to examine them from every angle, and assess the pros and cons. Still, I don't find her way of being entirely foreign. I get her. Even when I can't intellectualize her feelings to understand my most productive response, at a molecular level, I understand. I do spend a lot of time thinking about her, and her wonderfully agile mind, her swinging moods and her growing needs. I certainly don't always know how to best parent my three-year-old, but I still feel a molecular assurance in the way we relate.
I suspect as she grows and learns we'll see her toddler-fueled impulsiveness fade to spontaneity and her penchant for mental side trips replaced with a drive and focus for the task at hand.
Most revealing to me are her quieter moments, when she maintains an intense concentration for long periods of time. A favorite activity right now is assembling puzzles. She prefers to begin with all the pieces face down, then turn each piece over one at a time and quickly fit it in place. She becomes absolutely absorbed and will continue as long as the puzzle lasts.
Beep is finding the world to be a large and fascinating one. She loves the sky, the moon, the trees and animals. She's understanding how to predict weather by the heaviness of the clouds, and she looks for colors in the sunset and satellites in the night sky. She delights in finding the moon in the afternoon and is mulling over the root system of trees. Our animals are much loved (and very bossed around), and Tabor is her special friend.
Several days ago our resident doe, Tabor, gave birth to her baby (babies?). Since then our little deer has been staying close to the house as is her custom following birth. For whatever reason, Tabor is always tolerant of Beep's flailing, running, and screeching approaches. Even when she's feeling skittish and Cabbage and I can't get close to her, Tabor will usually let Beep pet her back, pat her head, and even rub her ears. They have some kind of understanding. I remember when I realized Beep and Sam had their own relationship.
Beep understands Tabor has a new baby and is excited to see the fawn. She is, however, surprisingly patient with the idea of waiting to see the baby. This is helpful as fawns are usually kept hidden for some time, so we often must wait days or weeks to see the new crop of babies.
When Tabor came wandering by the other day, she settled in the yard just outside our front window. Beep was playing inside and watched her for a few minutes while she continued with her game. Finally, though, she gave in to the allure of some time spent with her deer. She abandoned her toys, climbed onto the living room trunk and communed.
